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Salam..
kenapa pula saya nak post lirik ni..Lagu ni dari penyanyi Nomad, Tajuk lagu tetap menantimu...
mula2 kezen saya sorg ni bersungguh2 sukakan lagu ni, I ni blurr skit, so pikir2 punya pikir ape tajuk lagu ni, abes pikir and google, pop up la msg kt brain suh tgk kt era fm song list...so tadaaa..jumpelaaa

So bile kali kedua dgr lagu ni, mmg okla sedap dia punya lagu..blurr lagi tu...Then bile kezen cakap lagu ni agak2 sedih , I pun blurr lagi ni...ok2 so google la lirik lagu ni, sambil dengar lagu

Bila je baca first rangkap lirik , entah macam mana , terus menusuk ke kalbu, tusuk2 nih...terasa beraaaaat je hati... then continue next rangkap, rasa sesak je nafas,,, macam xkena je ngan badan, berdebar2 sikit.. 

OMG, first time experience ni, xpenah rasa mcm ni ...Ya Allah...Help me!!

There are things that lately happened really give impact to me...but when I think back... i don't like things that are uncertain in my life... xnak bagi hope yg tinggi, so juz be cool all the time...

But my kezen said, " Doa dan Usaha itu penting, kena ada, Insyaallah" so I take it as an advice..and most importantly kena lah jaga hati ,  xle la garden2 sangat..I will try my best to jaga my heart ... 
        

k chowww dulu yooo..!!

KEM Rakan muda Raub Pahang

These pictures were last time, masa jadi fasilitator untuk program opening young eyes (OYES) anjura kolej ibnu sina , UM.. went to Raub Pahang, with collaboration form YATEM ( anak2 yatim tu )..

3 days 2 night at kem rakan muda...

It was a pleasant and memorable experience sampai demam2...

Became a fasi...1st time experience, was honoured to take part in this team..Thanks Allah for making  my life full of valuable experiences that I would never forget. ...Alhamdulillah

breath taking view from the camp site with the kids..

Amboi gelak sakan naa kat org lain...ewah333

Masa aktiviti explorace...all legs were tied up and they need to walk together from end to the other end...LOL

LDK.... 

Among the fasilitator......what was kiew doing??????

with all the participants , wakil pendidikan raub...n the commitee.. 

Dr Orthopaedic

Assalamualaikum..

Spe yg perasan, setiap kali tulis kat blig mesti bile da habis posting..kali ni lg satu mggu nak abes possting ortho

Pe yg nk di kongsikan hari ni adalah pengalaman awkward tapi benar yg berlaku dah last minute nk abes posting...haha

since hari ni hari examination clinical , so rajin la nak pegi 1 bed ke bed yg laen, tgk2 mane satu potensi pesakit yg bole keluar exam.. I pun pergi la katil mak cik ni..belum satu minit tanya punya tanya pasal leg ulcer dia, ttb muncullah satu makhluk Allah ni...DR N... dia plk terkejut lbih tgk ak dlm bilik tu..so dia ckp proceed2 w the history, i wont bother u..sbb nk psg branula kt pt.( pastu gelak evil)

Dan dgn automatiknya, I jadi blurr,,kelu lidah x terkata, nk ty ape pun mcm segan kut dpn doc ..so i paused la 30 secs...(zzzzzzZZZ)

suddenly he said " haaa, malu la tu nk tanya, cuak2 ek,ala2 malu la tu" gelak mmg evil ..haha

so dgn poyonye I berani kanlah diri nk ty auntie tu tnpa peduli dia yg tgh iya2 nk pasang branula, ble paused balik..mmg I kena bahan kauwww2 la dgn dia.. 

" tgk auntie dia malu dah tu,,, xle cakap ape2 dah, hahaha.." ( dlm hati ak..mmg rse nk gigit2 jee)
" Nama  siapa ek? he asked me.
I dgn x berperasaan pun I jawabla " A**** " ..( macam pelik giler tanya nama)
dah nak abes ek posting, he asked
I replied , " aaa, 1 week more,"

"okay la doctor, nak cari case laenlaaaa."..I said.
" its okay u proceed jela w history, n exmntn , importnt tau.., he replied.( bajet xnak kasi I bla supaya bole kena gelakkan lagi)
and mcm kenapa entah, I  stranded another 1 min  kt situ continue clerked the  auntie
last2 xle sbr 

thank u auntie, i go first, okay bye doctor N .....!!!!!( ***malu gile kena bahan ngn doctor yg suka maen dota tu...hahah)

during my way out pun dia siap bhn2 ckp malu la tu, malu la tuh...

Me:
Of course la malu doctor oiiii..I mmg seorang yang pemalu,,(hehehe)..kalu hang tua dah kawen, xpe gak, ni muda, single available, good looking...memang terkedu la nk ckp...n one more thing i need to find other case also..for exam..if at that time i was free,,comperm I bahan u balik ...kita gelak sama2 naaaa...

ape2 pun mmg best lah  minggu2 terakhir ku di ortho posting...

Hari ni paksa diri *

Assalamualaikum...

Hari ni saya banyak paksa diri :

1) Malam tadi saya terpaksa dgr panggilan telefon dari felo, nak bagi jawatan kat kolej ni..mmm penat tolak..still kena paksa..sampai saya minta masa utk beri kata putus...susah nk tolak org ni..but I stick to my decision..

2) Saya paksa diri pergi wad psychiatric utk follow up patient..lepas tegur2 skit, saya merelakan diri pergi bilik rekreasi wad psy utk watch movie 'Wreck it Ralph'..ternganga  semua yg lalu lalang kt bilik tu..patient ke??? sbb terlalu nk tgk sgt mvie tu, tebalkan muka lah..hehehek

3) masa tgh makan tengah hari, saya paksa diri makan laju2 sebab nk tengok ular sawa kat pokok sebelah cafe Santap tu...punyalah x menikmati makanan sbb teruja sgt ** mmg besar la..diameter lebih kurang 12 cm laaa...

4) Masa nk g kelas petang  td, terpaksa jalan laju2 sebab Hilmi kat belakang den...* apa kaitan pun tak tau...hoho...(kiranya xnk ksi dia potong la, mne bole lawan tauke)

5) ptg tu jugak , saya kuatkan smgt g bilik tv kolej, tonton astro Tia & Tamera...sambil makan waffle perisa coklat & peanut.. ! sedap...

6) Now saya tgh get ready utk study for my end of posting exam...PSYchiatry.....mmmmm,,,paksa rela kan..
                                                       Pray for my success ye..amin

p/s : the point is...saja ja tulis heading 'paksa'..but better word for it is 'ikhlas'..If we do something for the sake of Allah, we will gain pahala...lotsssss of it...if paksa ja,,  dpt penat je kan... so ikhlaskan hati ye dalam setiap perkara yg kita lakukan..

Cancer vs Elective

Assalamualaikum cinta !

Hi love, everyone who read this blog will be my love one... sweet kan...? haha.. how love can be easily spread to others..

today is the third week of my elective posting months...meaning there is left only 1 month for me to have a so called holiday before getting into really serious business... mmmm...which is the final year of MBBS ( my study course)..

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N= Now , excited2 to tell bout my experienced through out the period..

F=first of all, my elective posting title : "Malaysian Gynaecological patient's Knowledge , attitude & practice on consuming Medicinal plants & herbal product..."

S= second of all, rasa x thrill tulis dlm english plak..hehe... my expectation for number of patients would be 100 ( wrote in my proposal, but then  was changed to 200 by my supervisor...superb *** after all of her encouragement, I finally put a positive hope & aura into this project..

N= Next , everyday I targeted  around 20 patient to be interviewed , so total up to be only 10 days of elective posting and the remaining would be HOLIDAYYYY"...unfortunately , the highest number of lucky person to be interviewed just around 5 , and the lowest so far would be 2... 

A=at that time, i learned the meaning of little'/ sikit pun bersyukur= redha, doa mintak byk lagi...everyday is a hope..

P= one thing that i would not forget was when i was rejected by one of the patient, masa tu tgh struggle nk crik pt of the day,,tup2 air mata meleleh,,,muka dah merah2,,uncontrollable..betapa luluh nye hati time tu,,,,hahahahahak..pape pun sempat cover dpn pt dan trus berlalu pergi...malu betullah ***lps tu lega..dan xkisah pape dah

P=pengalaman kelakar, dgn mak cik N' umor 70 +++ ..pangkat nenek ...hehek.. ble di tanya ttg herba yg dia gunakan,,tup3 mcm poket doraemon, kluar sebijik2 herba yg dia ckp...mula2 pill apricot, then pisang kaki, and the best part ble nenek N suh ak makan & rase ...mmg terharu' lah sgt... terkulat2 muka ble makan,,,sedapp****..thanks nenek ,jasa dan lawakmu ku kenang..

Ini adalah biji apricot..NOw they made into capsule n pills..ubat yg dikatakan bagus utk treat cancer from most of my respondent.

this is Sabah snake grass, cara buat dia, rendam mcm teh and mix with apple utk sedapkan rasa.

B=Benda yg aku suka sgt ialah ble tgh hari , lps berjam2 berkejar2 dr clinic gynae> ward> day care chemo> ward> clinic , last kaki pun lenguh, kepala pun berat, pegi day care chemo balik...patient xde...ehem* ada couch empuk, bole di baringkan 135 degree, aircond, tv....nurse yg baek hati kasi tido...kroohhh333333....haha..1 jam..zzzzz..mmg plg bestttt ****

L= ble perut lapar bgun tdo..ade org offer plak mknn( the nurses and clerk),, nasi lemak lah, oren mandarin la...mmg tgh lapar kan , so dgn muka excitednye , I said  "  NAK, hehe ...rezeki hari ni " nom nom nom...

Give your support to a cancer patient... they deserve to be happy..

conclusion nye..:

  

semua yang berlaku ni adalah ketentuan dr ILLAHI, apa yg berlaku ada isi tersurat & tersirat ...Bak kata pepatah sapew entah, X KENAL MAKA X CINTA..heehehehekk...